today was ok. well i did leave my math homework at home but other than that it wasn't too bad. oh yeah and on the way out to the parking lot noah and his gang threw water balloons at us. they're so incredibly mature. i have a boyfriend now :) ha calvin is cool...i like that kid. sometimes i think he looks like tom from blink182 which i guess is not all that bad hah. anyway it's actually kind of funny because yesterday noah came over to my house "to get dr.pepper" (yeah by the way my house is not a discount grocery store grr) and i was like oh no because everytime i see him it makes me think gee...i used to like him...and well it's just not good. but then today made me realize that my freshman boyfriend is more mature than him. i mean maturity really isn't that big of an issue b/c if it's funny then i don't really care but sometimes it's just like wow...that was dumb. eh well i'm happy now so...yeah.
soo tonight calvin & i are supposed to go do something and today i see his friend in the hallway and he's like oh hey i'm going to hang out with you guys after school! dude why would you bring your friend along when you know you could be getting some action? jeez hahah jk... i'm not a slut ew. but still unless one of my friends is going that seems kind of pointless. oh well.
rant of the day:
k so there was this senior guy who apparently killed himself last monday by purposely ramming his car into a huge pole. (after calling his mom on his cell phone and asking her if people who commit suicide go to heaven) yes, it was sad. yes, i'm sure it made a lot of people cry. yes, suicide is stupid. but i'm sick of hearing people talk about how selfish he was to do it. so what if he looked happy? so what if he had a girlfriend and went to church and got along with most people? just because things look perfect doesn't mean that they are. i know that suicide isn't a good answer but no one knows what was going on inside his head so i don't understand how people think they have the right to label him selfish. when you know that he didn't have any psychological problems then you can tell me he was selfish. then there's all these people who think that because he went to our school we know him. i didn't know the kid...i'm not going to go to his funeral just to make an appearance. if a bunch of people that i had never even met came to my funeral because their friends did or because they "felt bad" for me i think i would be pissed. if you never took the time to get to know me while i was alive then what would be the point of trying after i was already dead? it just doesn't make sense. and the people who i think are truly selfish are the ones who got out of class early and didn't even go to the damn thing. are you people immune to guilt?
hey i started off positively so...bonus points for me. i guess i'll go start on my history homework. oh and if you leave me a note i'll...ok i won't give you anything except all of my love. hahaha i'm a loser. bye