sometimes things just make me feel the need to die. on this report card i'm pretty sure i'll have 2 c's. i guess since they're ap classes technically they'll be b's but it still makes me sad. i mean i used to be smart...er. eh i just don't try much at all these days. oh well i'm tired of thinking about it.
the other day was my mom's birthday and this kid calvin went w/ me to get her a present. we spent forever goofing around and i ended up getting her this frame thing which was kind of dumb but i realized it's hard to shop for people when they don't have very many hobbies. anyway i think i like him. he's a freshmen though...which makes it a little sad but he doesn't act like one. hm he doesn't look like one either. so basically we've been hanging out and he seems cool.
then the other day i was talking to noah and we had the weirdest conversation ever. he was kind of friend's w/ the calvin guy..i don't think he is so much anymore..but basically he was saying i can do better. which i told him doesn't make much sense to me b/c it's not like i have a ton of options and if i like him...then isn't that all that matters? so then he tells me he's sorry and he knows he "shouldn't" but he feels jealous. wtf? if you're jealous then maybe you shouldn't still be going out w/ your girlfriend. now i'm confused. i was over it before and was sure that calvin was a good thing and all but why is he jealous? what is that supposed to mean? now he's got me thinking again and that's never good. i don't think i'll ever understand some guys. we started talking about why we didn't go out before...which is because he "didn't KNOW" that i liked him. he told me i'm not the easiest girl to figure these things out with. grr sorry i'm not a huge slutty flirt.
hm well on an exactly opposite side atleast i have my friends. i like how you know that your friends who are girls will always be there no matter what. it makes me happy. hahah that sounds so cheesy but it's true. tonight we all went to la madeline's, then the mall, then barnes and noble. we're such dorks...we drove to lincoln square and threw pennies in the fountain and made wishes. we probably looked insane but we had fun! man i hope we go on a roadtrip this summer. jeez i'm tired. bye