"when you have insomnia it's like you're never really asleep but you're never really awake"
that's from fight club...don't exactly quote me there but it goes something like that. that's exactly how i feel right now. i'm not asleep, i'm not awake, i'm just inbetween. before i saw that movie i thought it was just another overrated "like dude this movie so rocks with all the blood and stuff yeahhh" sucky movie. it's really good though. i'm not lying either. i have become addicted to bloody movies lately, so i'm guessing the whole fight club thing didn't help me much on that part but anyway this isn't a movie review so enough of that...
onto the usual ranting. i was watching "the secret life of kurt cobain" tonight on vh1 and it was just...dumb. i mean of course i'm not going to give up a chance to see some footage of him talking and everything but a secret life? anyone who's ever read anything on kurt cobain knows that he did drugs and all that. i don't think it's much of a secret anymore. i mean maybe i missed the point. i didn't see the whole thing so maybe there was some other part of his "secret life" that i didn't know about. anyway they had all of these random people talking about him...so this guy comes on and he's all "this was the happiest time in kurt's life..." what the fuck? that guy was just some reporter who probably never even met kurt cobain. who the hell is he to act like he knows when anyone is happiest in their life except HIMSELF?! urgh people make me mad. and maybe i'm stupid but i just think it's wrong that everyone wants to read his journals. i mean i know when he was writing them his basic hope was that people would actually want to read them some day but whatever. yes, i realize anyone who is reading this right now is technically reading "my journal" but i think that's a little differnt considering the circumstances. if i remember correctly he specifically requested that his journal entries never go public. whatever. courtney love...bitch. yeah i know that's typical. i'll stop b/c there's nothing i can do anyway. new rant topic...
alright well i'm going to this girl's birthday party tomorrow and we're supposed to meet at some hair place to get "updos." what the fuck is the point of that? "hey girlies!! let's go and get us some updos then go out to eat and show them off b/c we have nothing better to do! yippee!" ok so maybe i'm just mean but that's one of the dumbest ideas i've ever heard...and trust me i've come up w/ quite a few dumb ones myself. anyway i refuse to get an updo. they can curl my hair and crap if they want but if i walk out looking like i'm going to the prom then well...i won't walk out like that b/c i'll be pissed off and take it down. don't get me wrong i mean, i guess i see the point if you're going somewhere and it's a dressy occassion then you want your hair to be dressy looking, too. but if you aren't going to some stupid dance or something then, why? why i ask you? jeez i'm way too nice if i'm going through stuff like this. k i'm going to attempt to sleep now. bye